Have you felt sleeping for long hours but then you still not feel rested? Yeah that’s what I feel now, I was successful to sleep for long hours in day time however I still felt so tired because it is darn hot! Even though the fan was full blown but the air that comes from it was feeling like blowing so hot. It is indeed summer yet we didn’t have the chance to go to the beach, my niece keeps on asking when could we spend our weekend at the beach. And yet I am not sure, I am just too busy and so haggard because of not resting well during day time. I need an aircon, a new aircon perhaps can help me rest. Our air con here is not working properly, it airs out not good it only added up our bill for our electricity. My sister suggested to have it clean, oh well let’s see but if it will not work I really have to buy a new one.

These two sweet things were brought home during Mother’s Day, it was my husband idea to surprise me and his connivance with this secret plan is of course my eldest daughter who accomplished the job perfectly. The sweet blueberry cheese cake is from bread talk not bread work as I mentioned to my other blog. They also brought a flower for me. I feel so special in that day even with all the issues between me and my husband. How I wish Mother’s Day will be last a little longer than a day so I could enjoy every bit of it. When we arrived home, even how full we were, we can’t help but to have a slice of it, I guess I ate 3 slices that my husband laugh when he learned it when we chatted online. The flowers are still here, we displayed it in the kitchen we make sure that the water is replaced every now and then to avoid some harmful insects that would live in stagnant water.

As I mentioned to my other blog, ever since Mj started her musical lesson, I also learned new terms and so as what brand of instrument that has the quality and as well as worth the pocket. When we purchased the guitar of my daughter, I admit it was not easy at all. We have to be very meticulous in every detail since I don’t like to be sorry at the ended, purchasing the cheaper one and yet it would get busted after a week of using it. Moreover I am happy that Mj was able to finish the whole course and now she is stepping forward by learning wind instruments and one of them is how to flute. I am already inquiring on it over the Internet and I am sure I would be able to afford it in due time. She is okay not learning it this month, maybe next summer she will enroll for it, I just told her to enhance her learning at school.

I’d been telling my husband if we could buy or assume a house nearby but he keeps on telling me to wait until he arrives. He planned to be here February, March, and April and yet he still didn’t come, I know migrating to another country is already impossible since he is not earning anymore. He already retired from work since February and he is living now at his friend’s house. May is almost already over yet all the plans are pending, renting this house is not giving me problem but what I am concern about is the security of my kids. What if something happen along the way and our income will not be enough for all of us, how could we purchase a house then? I really don’t know what the plan of my husband is; the visa is not possible anymore for us. I don’t know if there’s something wrong with our petition or what papers are lacking or maybe he just doesn’t want us to be there and worst he doesn’t like us to be together. The financial support is okay but sometimes it is not the basis of a complete family, sometimes the presence of each one of us is important.