I am so driving the whole day in two days so this is the reason why I haven’t blog for days this week. If only I have a man here who could weigh things for me maybe life is not that difficult but oh well, I have to remain strong even I feel like I am slowly dying but I have to run around for my kids. I sometimes thought that if one day I will die, who would take care of them, who would drive them around who would be there to help them. And I thought I should not be dead, I grew up without parents in my side and it is so frustrating, but I have no choice but to accept the fact that sometimes we have to live alone and survive. But I never thought that the drama did not end, it continues and I don’t know will I have to wear a smile and laugh it all loud. Oh well, that’s life.